saturday morning

damn my eyes can barely stay open but i just HAD to get up. not that im trying to turn this into a dream blog but LORD... someone entered my unconscious, someone i have not thought about in a very long while, and my brain entertained it ALL night... its so weird how that happens sometimes. i guess my subconscious is working over time these days now, maybe theres a lot of stuff in waking life that i just dont deal with anymore. damn now im sleepy lol.

ive been trying to get this lovely condo on the nice side of town. my choice of roommates is uhhh not what i would necessarily prefer... but im hoping for the best. particularly since i dont really have too many other options. and besides between the two of us we can afford something much nicer than what i could get on my own budget. assuming we get this place im gunning for (it is SO nice) itd only be temporary and the second year id have to find new roommates. i cant wait til im making enough money that i dont need any damn roommates.

im in a weird mood now. . .

summer will hopefully be over soon... this has been way too long... its almost time for the back to school parade. funny to think everyone else is getting ready to leave and i still have another month and a half to go. i wish i hadnt wasted this whole summer. (well i needed the time to myself to cope, but i regret the time that ive lost, driving myself crazy). on the whole i do feel much better these days... ive come to terms, or grips even, with things that have been hurting me. im not 100% yet, but i know better than to look to the future now. for someone who is meticulously obsessed with what will happen later ive learned its better for me to start concerning myself only with the particulars of the present.